A series of events that happened that week, triggered all the pain I had inside, to rush back up again. Normally I could control it with knowledge and logic, but this time I was completely overwhelmed, lost my inner control, and let the child in me rage. To shield the people I love from the verbal assault she was spewing inside, I blocked myself off completely and went into a silent state.
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⚠️Trigger warning: sexual abuse is mentioned.
During life we quit a lot things. We walk away from jobs that no longer suit us, friends that turn out to be enemies, dead-end relationships and so on. But somehow we are conditioned to let certain toxic family members stay in our lives, while we do our best to accept them and everything that comes with them. But when is it necessary to end the relationship?
I often feel like I am not being heard by the people I actually want to hear me. Sometimes I get shut down before finishing my sentence or someone just blurres out "well, that's not true," while I'm still speaking. Well how would you know, if you won't even let me talk? I think to myself. I'm not confrontational at all so I often let it slide, until I realized that this was actually very toxic to me. I will let it slide when I don't know or care for the person, but when someone you actually...